Wow!

Yes I'm having one of those "Wow" moments that I so often have. I take a look around me and think, "How did I get here?!" I can flashback with no difficulty and see so vividly myself sitting on my bed... in my mother's house... two kids running around and one in the bassinet. No job... no prospects! Tears are in my eyes and guilt and shame have swallowed me whole... I couldn't feel any lower! A tiny part of me says, " Things will get better... this won't always be your life." I ignore that voice and wallow in my misery. At that moment, I couldn't even fathom that my life would turn out successful. I prayed, and prayed, and prayed... and only had an ounce of hope. I guess that's all it took. Every time I flashback to that memory it's surreal! I just can't believe how far God has brought me. Wow! That's all I can say.

...So Be Yourself!

I'm emotional at times... very sensitive... in my head way too much... analytical when I probably shouldn't be... and yes, the heart's located on my sleeve. My compassion can be irritating and I've had times when I wish I didn't care so much. "Why can't I just be normal?"... I use to ask myself. I always felt different from other females and for a long time, I saw it as a bad thing. Therefore, in relationships, I tried my best to be as "normal" as I could be but it never worked because I only knew how to be me. I finally realized, there is no "normal" and I may very well be different from other women, but I'm not the only woman who feels that way. Nonetheless, I can only be me! So if that means that this guy won't like me, or that person won't be my friend because of who I am... then that's what it means. It's not meant for us to be liked by every person (Jesus was perfect and even He was disliked). Surrounding ourselves with people who like and accept our personalities just as they are, is what's important. We can change our character, but not our personalities. If you have to alter your personality in any way to be accepted by someone, then guess what... it's not in the cards, so to speak. Whether we're talking about friendships or relationships, there are people who will like YOU, for you...